"We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves."
2 Corinthians 4:7
What a crazy school year it's been so far! I am learning a lot through my classes, I'm learning more about God, I'm learning more about myself, and most of all I'm learning more about the person God is creating me to be. I have my battles through seeing the person God is creating me to be. Ever since coming to Lancaster Bible College, the Devil has attempted me a lot to give up, or to put myself down on a daily basis. Whenever I feel at peace about something, later in the day I feel the Devil attempting me to remember the past, and make me feel guilty for everything I went through/done. But my God is loving and so forgiving that I am able to move through my life by putting my trust in him. Earlier this week, I went to the worship center, where they sing worship songs and have a speaker. Something touched me so deeply that its one of my goals that I'm trying to accomplish. The speaker used a great analogy of a glass jar. When you put your hand in the jar and make a fist, you have trouble taking your hand out of the jar. This represents holding on to the past events that happened in your life. When we can't let things go and give them to God, we have trouble moving on with our life and trusting the life God is creating us to be. But when we release the things to God, we are able to take our hand out of the jar, which shows that we can continue with our lives and trust God. I couldn't believe that a speaker that doesn't even know me, explained everything that I'm going through with a jar. I have to know that God allowed me to go through the situations I did for a reason, whether its going to change lives of others, change me, growing in my relationship with God, growing in my relationship with others, or directing me in a place that God wants me to go. Even when God allows us to go through the fire, he turns it into something so beautiful. I'm not telling you its an easy road to take, because it is hard, and you will have your ups and downs. Through these battles, know God is molding you into the person he wants you to be, you just need to trust in him and never let go. The journey I am going through gets confusing, asking God want he wants me to do with my life. Why am I here God, Why am I am in this major, why am I single, why am I so shy? When you are asking God these questions, trust me, through all those whys God has an answer. God created you through his image, which is perfect to him. God doesn't create anything ugly, not talented, and not loving. God created you to change the world and to be a light to the world. Sometimes you just want to see the light at the end of the tunnel right away, but through this slow process and dark times, God is working through you. He loves you oh so dearly, and wants the best future for you.
