The Walk of Faith

Deuteronomy 7:9 "Know therefore that the LORD your God is God, the faithful God  who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations."

    This past Saturday I started my first day Of CA (Community Assistant) training. I am beyond blessed that God has given me this opportunity to serve Him and the girls in my section this year spiritually. Also, I am blessed to be working along side of Lea my RA (Residence Assistance). She is one of the most loving, kind, down to earth, spiritual person I have met, and I am so excited to grow with her and learn more about who she is. But before I started training, I was a nervous wreck, not knowing what to expect from training week. I didn't know a lot of the people from Reslife, I don't do well will introducing myself to people first, I'm a introvert, I have trouble starting conversations, and I get very tired after being around large groups of people all day. So, knowing what Reslife was and what training week would be like; I had to face my fears and get out of my comfort zone. At times I wondered why God would call a shy person like me to be a CA in Reslife, but I know He had a reason for me being here. So, I trusted Him and took the first step out of my comfort zone this entire week. And let me tell you I have seen changes in myself that I have not seen before. Slowly, not quickly, but slowly I have been learning how to open myself up more to people. Especially people that I may not open myself up to usually. I have learned to appreciate more about people's differences and similarities, I have loved getting to know all of the people on the Reslife team, and I love how funny they are! They are always making you laugh! I still consider myself an introvert by the end of the day, but I still love community and I love to talk and have conversations with people about their personal life. I have appreciated the openness and kindness that the Reslife team has showed towards me and others around me. We are all like one big family. In the end, most lessons I have learned is always go where the Lord calls you, even if it's scary and out of your comfort zone, because you will grow and learn many new things. Don't be afraid because the Lord is faithful and always by your side. Embrace the journey the Lord has prepared for you!

The Future

    "But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”

Lamentations 3: 21-23

    The future can be an exciting but truly scary thought. Especially when you are at the age 22 and still trying to graduate college. It's hard to see friends and family around your age finishing up college and starting their careers and their independence. At Lancaster Bible College, I am majoring in Early Education, and with that we have to take the Praxis and pass it before we move on to our higher education classes. So far, I have taken it three times and have not passed it yet. With that, it's pushing back my graduation date. Also, the longer it takes for me to pass it the less classes I can take. I have always wanted to be a teacher since 9th or 10th grade. I also have a heart for children with disabilities. This journey has been a big trial and a challenge in my life. Doubting that I won't pass it or not finding a career. I get scared of what the future holds for me, whether I'm doing what God has called me to do or if I am just doing what I want to do. I believe that when you feel passionate, it urges you, you can't stop thinking about it, and it's always on your heart, that's where God is leading you. I have had this dream the past year or two of starting my own charter school for children with disabilities. I have thought about working overseas or in the city. This has been on my heart for a long time and I don't think that will ever change. What I have learned through this trial of my future and trying to pass this huge test, is that I must rejoice and trust that the Lord is still working in me through this. There is a reason for it and I must wait and lean on Him in the process. God doesn't just leave us in the dust, He's always at work in us. Even though I can't see my future and what it holds, my God can see it. And I know the Lord's plan for us is wonderful and I trust that. In this process of waiting I will still rejoice and love my great Father in Heaven. I give Him all the glory through everything that happens in my life. Trust that the Lord has a future for you and praise Him through the trials and the waiting. The Lord never forsakes us, so don't forsake Him.