Saturday, December 30, 2017
I Forgive You
I forgive you. I forgive you for the hurt, lies, your selfish ways, and how much you pushed me around and controlled me. I forgive you for not truly loving me the way a man should love a lady. I forgive you because I have a God that loves me more than anything in this world. I'm also thankful that God gave me a wonderful boyfriend that sees my worth. A guy that doesn't hurt me, respects my opinions, and lets me be myself. I love that he's open and honest about his life, I love that he adores me, and wants me to grow everyday. He told me he's thankful that he gets to love me everyday. Wow, I never thought I would hear those words come out of a guys mouth ever after our toxic relationship. I know I did things wrong in the relationship and things that I need to improve on. I'm sorry for the way that I have hurt you. I have forgiven myself for those mistakes that I have done in the past and I hope you forgive yourself. I hope that you change and I hope you grow. I hope that you achieve your goals and I hope that you wont hurt the next girl, like you hurt me. I forgive you because I'm moving on from the past and letting you go. I'm thankful for what happened in the past because it taught me so many things about myself and what is important in a relationship. To all the girls out there, don't think any less of yourself because of how a guy is treating you. You are worth so much, so please wait for the right guy that will see your worth because its worth it in the end.
Tuesday, December 19, 2017
You are Fearfully and Wonderfully Made
At least 30 million people of all ages and genders suffer from an eating disorder in the U.S.
Every 62 minutes at least one person dies as a direct result from an eating disorder.
"I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well." Psalm 139:14. My heart just breaks for girls/guys that struggle with body image everyday. If you are one of those people that struggle with it, please know that you are beautiful in your own way. No one else could possibly be the unique person that God created you to be. It's amazing to think that a God so powerful and loving created you. God doesn't create anything not worthy and ugly. Everything he creates is beautiful in their own way, and that's including you. You are fearfully and wonderfully made! Don't ever let anyone tell you differently because they aren't you and they didn't create you. God created you and with that God cares for you so much and wants what's best for you, while giving him all the glory to him through it all. Don't compare yourself to some magazine and a girl on a movie because they aren't you and you aren't them. You are your own individual that could never be replaced. Most of all you are a child of God! You are loved by the one true king of this world! I can't even believe that God died on the cross for me! That's just crazy when you think about it. God loves me so much that he died on the cross for me. In the end, it doesn't matter what the latest fashion is, what shape/size you are because what really matters in life is having a relationship with God. A God that cares and thinks you are beautiful on the inside and out.
Every 62 minutes at least one person dies as a direct result from an eating disorder.
"I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well." Psalm 139:14. My heart just breaks for girls/guys that struggle with body image everyday. If you are one of those people that struggle with it, please know that you are beautiful in your own way. No one else could possibly be the unique person that God created you to be. It's amazing to think that a God so powerful and loving created you. God doesn't create anything not worthy and ugly. Everything he creates is beautiful in their own way, and that's including you. You are fearfully and wonderfully made! Don't ever let anyone tell you differently because they aren't you and they didn't create you. God created you and with that God cares for you so much and wants what's best for you, while giving him all the glory to him through it all. Don't compare yourself to some magazine and a girl on a movie because they aren't you and you aren't them. You are your own individual that could never be replaced. Most of all you are a child of God! You are loved by the one true king of this world! I can't even believe that God died on the cross for me! That's just crazy when you think about it. God loves me so much that he died on the cross for me. In the end, it doesn't matter what the latest fashion is, what shape/size you are because what really matters in life is having a relationship with God. A God that cares and thinks you are beautiful on the inside and out.
Wednesday, November 22, 2017
All the Glory Goes to My Christ Jesus
Philippians 3: 7-14: "But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. 8 What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in[a] Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. 10 I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.
12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."
You're beautiful , you're beautiful... This sums up Philippians 3:7-17 very well. The other day, one of my friends asked me what fruit of the spirit do I have the most trouble with and that I would like to work on more. My reply was really all of them, because I am no where near being perfect. But if I had to pick one, I told her peace. Peace has always been a struggle through out my life and putting my trust in God. She told me to read Philippians chapter 3 and 4 , so as I was reading chapter 3, and before I could read onto chapter 4, tears began to stream down from my eyes. I just felt a sudden peace within my soul when I read verses 7-14. But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. WOW! Whatever satisfies me in life is not worth the gain to Christ because its not about me, its about Christ. Everything that happens in my life, is because of God and not myself. My life is not about satisfying me, but satisfying my Christ Jesus and bringing all the glory to him alone. Do you know what that means? That I have no reason to fear and to not be at peace because of how great and all mighty my God is. My life is centered around him and everything I do is because of him, so why should I not have peace when I have an all powerful God that is living in my life. With a life with Christ I have lost all things, which are fear, anxiety, guilt, sorrow, etc. I can leave all these things behind because I have faith in God. My goal in life is to be more like Christ everyday and to continue to have faith in him through everything that happens in my life. Forget what was behind you and take a hold of God and continue to grow in your faith in him. Look ahead, which is an eternal life with God in heaven and before that time comes, enjoy what God is doing now in your life, but don't forget to bring all the glory to him alone. This life isn't about us, its about bringing glory to him and being more like him daily. Bringing God's word to others around us and keeping our faith in God. Its amazing how God speaks to us through his word, so I encourage you all to read his word. He is truly a beautiful God and I thank him for everything he is doing in my life. Thank you, God.
12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."
You're beautiful , you're beautiful... This sums up Philippians 3:7-17 very well. The other day, one of my friends asked me what fruit of the spirit do I have the most trouble with and that I would like to work on more. My reply was really all of them, because I am no where near being perfect. But if I had to pick one, I told her peace. Peace has always been a struggle through out my life and putting my trust in God. She told me to read Philippians chapter 3 and 4 , so as I was reading chapter 3, and before I could read onto chapter 4, tears began to stream down from my eyes. I just felt a sudden peace within my soul when I read verses 7-14. But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. WOW! Whatever satisfies me in life is not worth the gain to Christ because its not about me, its about Christ. Everything that happens in my life, is because of God and not myself. My life is not about satisfying me, but satisfying my Christ Jesus and bringing all the glory to him alone. Do you know what that means? That I have no reason to fear and to not be at peace because of how great and all mighty my God is. My life is centered around him and everything I do is because of him, so why should I not have peace when I have an all powerful God that is living in my life. With a life with Christ I have lost all things, which are fear, anxiety, guilt, sorrow, etc. I can leave all these things behind because I have faith in God. My goal in life is to be more like Christ everyday and to continue to have faith in him through everything that happens in my life. Forget what was behind you and take a hold of God and continue to grow in your faith in him. Look ahead, which is an eternal life with God in heaven and before that time comes, enjoy what God is doing now in your life, but don't forget to bring all the glory to him alone. This life isn't about us, its about bringing glory to him and being more like him daily. Bringing God's word to others around us and keeping our faith in God. Its amazing how God speaks to us through his word, so I encourage you all to read his word. He is truly a beautiful God and I thank him for everything he is doing in my life. Thank you, God.
Wednesday, November 1, 2017
Promises of God
Trusting can be so hard at times. Trust, has always been a problem through the past couple years of my life, especially letting new people into my life. The fear of getting hurt and abandoned always circles my head. But the real question is, are we really abandoned when we have a God that cares so deeply for us? God has so many promises in store for us when we rely and trust in him. Joshua 23:14 says, "Deep in your hearts you know that every promise of the Lord your God has come true. Not a single one has Failed!" As I was reading this verse this morning, I could feel the presence of the Holy Spirit and a comfort that filled my heart. In times of loneliness and fear, I know my God understands exactly how I feel and understands what I am going through. He uses what you're going through for your future and our purpose here on earth. I know I can rely on God through the good days and the bad days, because he has so many promises in store for us. No matter the situation, God uses it for the good and for the will he wants for our life. The past month or two, God has opened my eyes like never before. He has tested my strength and abilities. He has shown me how great his love is through the struggles. He has pushed me to strive to know him more. He has pushed me to open up my heart to him, say everything I'm feeling, and giving it all to him. Giving it all to him. That's the first step of letting go... giving all the pain, trust, depression, heartache to him. Our loving God that cares for us so deeply and who wants to change our hearts. Look at Job, who had everything taken away from him, but he still continued to trust God through those troubles. Even when people told him to curse God, he still continued to trust God. I want my life to be more like that. No matter what situation happens, to just praise God through the storm. When you do, you will be amazed to see how great our God is. The promises of God are unthinkable, unspeakable, fascinating, and incredible. You have a God that loves you, and wants you, all of you. Don't be afraid to let people into your lives, because they may have an impact on you, or you may have an impact on them. But also don't be afraid to let God in your life. A God that gave everything to have you, so give your whole self to him. Just watch and see the wonderful things he has in store for you, and just watch how much your life will transform. You will see a new life, a life full of love, grace, faith, something that is unspeakable. YOU ARE LOVED, by the ONE TRUE KING, JESUS.
Sunday, September 24, 2017
Mold me Lord
"We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves."
2 Corinthians 4:7
What a crazy school year it's been so far! I am learning a lot through my classes, I'm learning more about God, I'm learning more about myself, and most of all I'm learning more about the person God is creating me to be. I have my battles through seeing the person God is creating me to be. Ever since coming to Lancaster Bible College, the Devil has attempted me a lot to give up, or to put myself down on a daily basis. Whenever I feel at peace about something, later in the day I feel the Devil attempting me to remember the past, and make me feel guilty for everything I went through/done. But my God is loving and so forgiving that I am able to move through my life by putting my trust in him. Earlier this week, I went to the worship center, where they sing worship songs and have a speaker. Something touched me so deeply that its one of my goals that I'm trying to accomplish. The speaker used a great analogy of a glass jar. When you put your hand in the jar and make a fist, you have trouble taking your hand out of the jar. This represents holding on to the past events that happened in your life. When we can't let things go and give them to God, we have trouble moving on with our life and trusting the life God is creating us to be. But when we release the things to God, we are able to take our hand out of the jar, which shows that we can continue with our lives and trust God. I couldn't believe that a speaker that doesn't even know me, explained everything that I'm going through with a jar. I have to know that God allowed me to go through the situations I did for a reason, whether its going to change lives of others, change me, growing in my relationship with God, growing in my relationship with others, or directing me in a place that God wants me to go. Even when God allows us to go through the fire, he turns it into something so beautiful. I'm not telling you its an easy road to take, because it is hard, and you will have your ups and downs. Through these battles, know God is molding you into the person he wants you to be, you just need to trust in him and never let go. The journey I am going through gets confusing, asking God want he wants me to do with my life. Why am I here God, Why am I am in this major, why am I single, why am I so shy? When you are asking God these questions, trust me, through all those whys God has an answer. God created you through his image, which is perfect to him. God doesn't create anything ugly, not talented, and not loving. God created you to change the world and to be a light to the world. Sometimes you just want to see the light at the end of the tunnel right away, but through this slow process and dark times, God is working through you. He loves you oh so dearly, and wants the best future for you.
2 Corinthians 4:7
What a crazy school year it's been so far! I am learning a lot through my classes, I'm learning more about God, I'm learning more about myself, and most of all I'm learning more about the person God is creating me to be. I have my battles through seeing the person God is creating me to be. Ever since coming to Lancaster Bible College, the Devil has attempted me a lot to give up, or to put myself down on a daily basis. Whenever I feel at peace about something, later in the day I feel the Devil attempting me to remember the past, and make me feel guilty for everything I went through/done. But my God is loving and so forgiving that I am able to move through my life by putting my trust in him. Earlier this week, I went to the worship center, where they sing worship songs and have a speaker. Something touched me so deeply that its one of my goals that I'm trying to accomplish. The speaker used a great analogy of a glass jar. When you put your hand in the jar and make a fist, you have trouble taking your hand out of the jar. This represents holding on to the past events that happened in your life. When we can't let things go and give them to God, we have trouble moving on with our life and trusting the life God is creating us to be. But when we release the things to God, we are able to take our hand out of the jar, which shows that we can continue with our lives and trust God. I couldn't believe that a speaker that doesn't even know me, explained everything that I'm going through with a jar. I have to know that God allowed me to go through the situations I did for a reason, whether its going to change lives of others, change me, growing in my relationship with God, growing in my relationship with others, or directing me in a place that God wants me to go. Even when God allows us to go through the fire, he turns it into something so beautiful. I'm not telling you its an easy road to take, because it is hard, and you will have your ups and downs. Through these battles, know God is molding you into the person he wants you to be, you just need to trust in him and never let go. The journey I am going through gets confusing, asking God want he wants me to do with my life. Why am I here God, Why am I am in this major, why am I single, why am I so shy? When you are asking God these questions, trust me, through all those whys God has an answer. God created you through his image, which is perfect to him. God doesn't create anything ugly, not talented, and not loving. God created you to change the world and to be a light to the world. Sometimes you just want to see the light at the end of the tunnel right away, but through this slow process and dark times, God is working through you. He loves you oh so dearly, and wants the best future for you.
Monday, August 14, 2017
Taking Back The Old Me
"She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her. Long life is in her right hand; in her left hand are riches and honor. Her ways are pleasant ways, and all her paths are peace. She is a tree of life to those who take hold of her; those who hold her fast will be blessed." Proverbs 3: 15-18
This verse just reminds me of how precious God's thoughts are about me. I am a child of God and just that gives me the confidence that I can do anything through my loving Jesus. When you go into a relationship you know you deserve the best, but when you are in a relationship with a person that continually hurts you and you have trouble letting go of the person, you begin to just put up with all the mess, but you don't deserve that at all. Definitely don't ever let a guy lower your self- esteem. Don't change the person God created you to be just to make another guy more happy. Don't ever change the plan God has for you for one guy. The plan God has for you is 1000x better than what that one guy has planned for you. I made all these mistakes while I was in the relationship. And I don't want you to go through what I did, because you could be using that time to grow closer with God and trusting in Him with the plan He has for your life. But we all learn from our mistakes, right? Sometimes I get angry at myself and God for letting me go through the type of relationship I did. But God has us go through different trials in life for a reason. My reason was to realize how far away from God I had become and to see the worth that I have and deserve. So, now I am taking back the old me, which is being the strong child of God that God created me to be. I know a lot of girls want to fall in love and get married to the guy of their dreams one day, and I am one of those girls that thinks that a lot. But the past few days of reading articles and a book called "Captivating" has helped me a lot through that. I'll never find a guy that adores me as much as my God does, and I'll never find a guy as loving, forgiving, and a romancer as my God is. I don't want to be in a relationship with another guy, unless my relationship with God is where it should be. And right now I'm not there, I'm growing and learning still. I'm learning to appreciate the trials God put me through, I'm learning to appreciate being single, I'm learning to appreciate the gifts and personality traits that God has given me, I'm learning to appreciate the way I look and who I am as a person. Through all those things that I struggle with, God shows me the beautiful person I am through those things. And if a guy can't show me that than he isn't the one. You want a guy to bring out the best in you and most of all who wants you to grow spiritually with God. I can't tell you I'm a 100% okay with being single, but I am growing and learning to appreciate it more each day because I have time with God. I have the time to talk, read His word, and worship Him on an everyday basis. Learn to appreciate who you are because God loves who you are and thinks you deserve the best. Don't let any guy think any less of who you are as a person. If you are in a relationship, let God be the center focus of the relationship, always. If you are single, appreciate that too because you have God and that's what matters the most. Don't ever lose sight of who you truly are, you are beautiful!
If you are interested in the book "Captivating" it's by John & Stasi Eldredge. I'm still reading it, but it's so far a great book!
Here's an article that I love and it's about being single!
http://www.projectinspired.com/to-the-single-girls-god-has-not-forgotten-you/
This verse just reminds me of how precious God's thoughts are about me. I am a child of God and just that gives me the confidence that I can do anything through my loving Jesus. When you go into a relationship you know you deserve the best, but when you are in a relationship with a person that continually hurts you and you have trouble letting go of the person, you begin to just put up with all the mess, but you don't deserve that at all. Definitely don't ever let a guy lower your self- esteem. Don't change the person God created you to be just to make another guy more happy. Don't ever change the plan God has for you for one guy. The plan God has for you is 1000x better than what that one guy has planned for you. I made all these mistakes while I was in the relationship. And I don't want you to go through what I did, because you could be using that time to grow closer with God and trusting in Him with the plan He has for your life. But we all learn from our mistakes, right? Sometimes I get angry at myself and God for letting me go through the type of relationship I did. But God has us go through different trials in life for a reason. My reason was to realize how far away from God I had become and to see the worth that I have and deserve. So, now I am taking back the old me, which is being the strong child of God that God created me to be. I know a lot of girls want to fall in love and get married to the guy of their dreams one day, and I am one of those girls that thinks that a lot. But the past few days of reading articles and a book called "Captivating" has helped me a lot through that. I'll never find a guy that adores me as much as my God does, and I'll never find a guy as loving, forgiving, and a romancer as my God is. I don't want to be in a relationship with another guy, unless my relationship with God is where it should be. And right now I'm not there, I'm growing and learning still. I'm learning to appreciate the trials God put me through, I'm learning to appreciate being single, I'm learning to appreciate the gifts and personality traits that God has given me, I'm learning to appreciate the way I look and who I am as a person. Through all those things that I struggle with, God shows me the beautiful person I am through those things. And if a guy can't show me that than he isn't the one. You want a guy to bring out the best in you and most of all who wants you to grow spiritually with God. I can't tell you I'm a 100% okay with being single, but I am growing and learning to appreciate it more each day because I have time with God. I have the time to talk, read His word, and worship Him on an everyday basis. Learn to appreciate who you are because God loves who you are and thinks you deserve the best. Don't let any guy think any less of who you are as a person. If you are in a relationship, let God be the center focus of the relationship, always. If you are single, appreciate that too because you have God and that's what matters the most. Don't ever lose sight of who you truly are, you are beautiful!
If you are interested in the book "Captivating" it's by John & Stasi Eldredge. I'm still reading it, but it's so far a great book!
Here's an article that I love and it's about being single!
http://www.projectinspired.com/to-the-single-girls-god-has-not-forgotten-you/
Saturday, August 12, 2017
Hello, Everyone! I'm beyond excited to start my first blog ever! I thought I would tell you some things about myself and the reason why I am starting this blog. I am 21 years old and attending Lancaster Bible College. I am studying Early Childhood Education, and hopefully down the road a minor in Special Education. I have two brothers, two dogs, and a cat. I love adventure! If you ask me to go somewhere, no matter where I'll most likely go. I love trying new foods, especially if it's from another country! I love being outside and taking in all the beauty that surrounds us everyday! I love to read, shop, paint, watch movies, running, and being around the people I love! Most of all I am a Jesus lover! I wouldn't know where I would be today if I didn't have Jesus in my life. He is the one that holds me together on an everyday basis. So, those are some things about myself. I am starting this blog for different reasons. I am an introvert, so it seems as though I spend much of my time deep in thought and sometimes I hate that about me, but I also have learned that it's not always a bad thing. I thought it would be fun and interesting to put all of my analyzing and thinking down in words. Also, in the past few years I have had a lot of ups and downs. I just came out of a not so good relationship and I want this blog to reach out to other individuals that may have gone through the same situations. From the different circumstances that have happened in the past, I have a lot of anxiety, trust issues, fear, and insecurities that I struggle with on a daily basis. But I want you all to know you aren't alone in these situations. I want to help you and give you advice from my own experiences. I hope you enjoyed reading! My first blog that I will be working on is called "taking back the old me". Thank you for reading, Bye!
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